I'm coming back! And I will make a livery as a celebration

And the storytime I guess: So guys, everything is not how it seems and you don't really know what bottom is until you won't live at it. If you know me, you know that I have ADHD and we discussed it on this forum full of great people (I think we were talking about it at the post "SS Autism", a ship). It doesn't make nothing, but it just worsens my psychical state, it makes you feel everything more intensively. I had a lot of thinking about "bad stuff" (if you ask me in comments I will maybe tell you, don't want to say it here directly) and some depression and anxiety. I don't have social media (and except YT and Reddit/discord) and society overall, there are many stupid people romanticizing it. No, it's not that what you think. There's nothing good about it. Just imagine being totally dead inside, sad all the time and don't know why, wanting to end and you still think that's romantic? I don't get some people. But if you're a normal social media user, I have no problem with you. And stupid tiktokers are still parodying and faking ADHD, autism and other mental disorders. Stop, just stop, you're hurting those who have it. I just ignore them, but there are people who take it differently. And yeah, in these two months I quitted Buddhism. It's okay, I respect every religion if it's not extremistic, but I'm more philosophical and it's just not enough for me. But have positive memories and view on it. Becoming atheist again 💀. And yes, writing poetry keeps me sane. And you don't need to feel sorry for me, I'm here for you all. When my own soul is empty, I want to be here for others at least.

"Mind is like a flower, if you don't care about, it will die"
-one of my retarded thoughts.
Guys, don't let your flower die. Don't end up like me. Please. It's pain. Really don't end up like me. Love you all. Life is a pain, but without the pain you can't see the good. But there cant be too much pain.

With love, your NormalCv580enjoyer