Sometimes its just wierd, you upload a plane of yours and, never check on it again except for upvotes and maybe comments in most.

I have been uploading planes for 2.1 years and i still kind of feeling this odd like "Upload, Leave, Check it next day" and if no notifications arrived tbe next day, its just odd that Is it worth it?
Is it worth the work that i have built
Is it worth the time that i spent
Is it worth the amount of events i dismissed
Is it worth the hard effort and idea that i have thinked of?
And thats the moment im starting to realize that, i have began to be unproductive.
Create creations that will never be uploaded that i even meant to be uploaded. Waste time by playing around with things and just leave it meagerly in days and never ever touch it in 3-4 years since.
This is the invisible downfall of me, time has begun to speed up, 3 years is nothing but a day full of playing, repeat for 7 times for a week, and doing it for 365 days without actually making a purpose in reality
Reality is the true thing that makes us work and do something... You exist in reality, and so does i and everything that exist in this universe. A feeling of the expanse of the universe. And you are just a speck of thing in this world...
Why? Is what i and you and everyone doing is just writing some binary numbers, text and XML codes into a file saved inside a computer, stored in electrons and everything that we have made here, are just Tiny, the thing that we have all made are a line of code, in a form of tiny tiny electrons, and the only thing it deserves purpose is, to be run by a larger line of electrons considered as.. Code.
This text is also just electrons, you and me works by electric signals in the brain, and you are reading this in your brain. Hallucinating that you understand this Line of Electrons stored in a cage of electrons that represents an Alphabet, Word, Sentence, and a Paragraft.
This world and everything in it is one machine. And that machine is in you. And that is, the Brain..